... Episode 17 of the What's Arising Podcast

In this podcast, from personal experience, I talk about the sense of 'Home'. Many people in our world today feel lost. Many others are homeless, or their physical place of home is being uprooted. Others don't feel at home in this world. Everyone has a longing for 'Home' at some level, and this draws us towards the state of Home or Unity, Oneness, Unconditional Love and 'Source'.

In our Cohering Community program, we are experiencing a deep connection that we experience as a sense 'Home'. You are invited to join us in this program. http://coheringcommunity.com

Welcome back to What’s Arising?

It has been a long while since I have been here. Since my last podcast, I have been busy, focused, and there has been a lot happening in my life. I am sure there has been a lot happening in yours as well.

So here we are, with the theme of coming home — a place to call home.

I hope you feel at home here in this podcast. This theme feels very appropriate for me right now, because many of the insights I have received over the last few months have been about home. It feels relevant to what is happening in me, to people I know, and to the world around us. There is also so much homelessness in the world right now, in many different forms.

So let me begin this podcast on the theme of home.

As I have done in other podcasts, I am going to ring my bowl. As I ring the bowl, I invite you to get a sense of what home is for you.

Maybe you can connect with a deeper sense of home beneath the wounding. Or, if home for you is a wounded place, I invite you to simply be with that too.

Whatever home is for you, notice what arises. Notice any feelings, images, sounds, ideas, or insights that come as I ring the bowl. Let yourself get connected to that place. Let yourself orient toward what you sense as home.

[Music / Singing Bowl]

When I connect to that sense of home through the sound of the bowl, I feel a tingling sensation all through my body. It reconnects me to a space I might call love. A space of deep peace and serenity. A sense of caring.

What was there for you?

What were your feelings around home?

Did any images come? Any sounds? Any memories?

Where is home for you?

Maybe it is something embodied, something you can feel inside yourself. Maybe it is a sense of place. Maybe it is your family. Maybe it is where you live. Maybe it is a place you long for.

Do you have a home?

Or, in some sense, are you homeless, as so many people in the world are? Perhaps not only in terms of physical place, but inwardly. Maybe there is a sense of being homeless or lost inside of you.

I think for many people that is the case. We can feel lost. We can feel as though we do not fully belong in this world anymore, especially with the way things are unfolding. We can feel deeply displaced.

When we think of home, sensations may arise. Triggers and wounds may come up around mother, father, hometown, family, or the physical place we once called home. These are often places where something still needs to be healed, released, surrendered, or integrated.

This space called home can have so much associated with it.

I was originally going to call this podcast A Place Called Home, but I realized that the word “place” was not quite adequate. Home is not only a physical place. It is broader than that.

I have been creating online spaces that feel like home, at least that is what people are saying. I will share more about Cohering Community later. But the word “space” feels more appropriate.

And then there is this inner space that feels like home.

For a very long time in my life, the space of home has always been inside me. It has been an inner state. So perhaps the phrase a state called home is even more accurate.

Where can we find this state called home, rather than living in a state of feeling lost?

How can we embody and feel at home wherever we are, and whoever we are with?

This has been a lifelong journey for me.

I had a pretty good place called home in this life, with pretty good parents. Yes, there were wounds and challenges, as there are in most families — maybe all families — but I can say that I was fortunate.

Back around 1995 or 1996, I started to feel very lost in the world. I felt lost in my job, very burned out, and I began searching for meaning. I had an inner voice that said:

Find out who you are.

That voice had been calling to me since I was a teenager, but I mostly ignored it. I had things to do. I had to be successful in the physical world. I had to go to university, get a job, and make my way.

So I went off to university. I went to work at IBM. Eventually, though, I had to turn toward that inner voice.

That voice guided me, and in 1997, after following a series of synchronicities, I found myself in India. There, I had an experience where I left my body for a few moments, or at least that is how it felt. In that experience, I found home.

I was home.

I was in what I would call Source.

The best word I could put on that state was home.

That place, that state, was unconditional love. I had never done anything wrong. No one had ever done anything wrong. There was absolute peace. This was Source. This was God. This was being enveloped in oneness, unity, and home.

My purpose came from that place as well.

When I left that experience, I had the sense that I was to spend the rest of my life coming into integrity with that state of home. Coming into integrity with oneness, unity, and unconditional love. Finding complete peace within myself. Letting go of all opinion and judgment of others and myself. Healing. Forgiving.

That has been quite a journey. And, as I am sure many of you can appreciate, it is still an ongoing journey. There is always more work to do.

The other part of that journey was the sense that I was to walk each other home. To come home with others. To coax, teach, invite, or hold people’s hands as we walk home together.

That was very much part of the purpose I came away with. It is what I have been attempting to do ever since.

Perhaps if you are listening to this podcast, this is part of your purpose too: to go home, and to help others find their way home.

A few years ago, perhaps about four years ago, I came across the Gene Keys by Richard Rudd. If you have not checked out the Gene Keys, I invite you to search for them. You can get a free profile and begin exploring the spheres, including your Life’s Work, Purpose, path of love, and path of prosperity.

What is interesting in my own profile is the sphere called Vocation, which speaks to how we are here to serve humanity — or serve the Grail, in a sense.

For me, that sphere is Gene Key 2.

Gene Key 2, at the Siddhic level, is Unity. Each Gene Key has a shadow, a gift, and a Siddhi or enlightened expression. The Siddhic level of Gene Key 2 is Unity.

If you read about Gene Key 2, you will find that it is about going home. It is about returning to Source. Returning to oneness.

So this is interesting. The way I am here to serve humanity is through this movement back into unity.

The shadow of Gene Key 2 is the sense of being lost, disoriented, or separated from the way home. The gift is orientation. Reorientation.

It is the realization that, in reality, we cannot actually be lost. That is an illusion. We are always home, wherever we are. We are always connected to home, even if we do not feel that way.

The journey is to become reoriented to the truth that it is impossible to be in complete separation.

There is still a journey back to the realization that we are whole, that we are one, that we are Source, and that in our essence we have never truly left home. It has always been inside us.

This connects deeply to my experience in India and to my sense of what I am here to do in the world now: building spaces where people can come back into unity, into community, and into coherent community.

This is what I have been focused on over the last months.

In the fall, we will be rolling out a program called Cohering Community, the third iteration of this experience. The previous experiences have been wonderful and deep.

At the same time, I am noticing in my own life and in the lives of many colleagues around me a loss or destabilization of the physical space called home.

For me, I came back to be with my mother about two and a half years ago because I wanted her to be able to stay in her own home until she passed, if I could possibly serve and support her in that.

Then, in May, she passed over to her other home — her real home, I suppose. She has gone home.

My mother would never have wanted to go into a nursing home. She resisted leaving the place she called home. So I feel deeply fortunate and blessed that I could be in this place, my home for many years, the place where I grew up, and support her in staying home until she passed to her real home.

I had come home to the place where I grew up.

For the last forty years or so, whenever I came back to this town, to the place where my mother and father were, I would say, “I am going home.” My siblings, who were also away from this place, would say the same thing: “I am heading home, back to Mom.”

That mother energy, that mother archetype, holds the relationship of home so beautifully. I hope you have had some experience of that in your life. Home is often where your mother is, or where that mothering energy is. That nurturing energy. That sense of being held.

Home is also where the father energy can be — the protection around the home, the boundaries, the support, the security, the safety.

But the love, the peace, and the essence of home often feel deeply connected to the feminine mother archetype. It feels nurturing, like a big hug.

Now I am in this experience of moving on from the physical place I once called home. My siblings are also having to let go of this space. My mother is gone. What will unite us now around this sense of family and home?

I will move somewhere. Perhaps I will put my backpack on and become a digital nomad. Perhaps I will find another place. But it will probably never be a physical place like this one, which I called home.

What I am doing instead is fulfilling that longing for a place to call home through community, and through the programs I am co-creating with others.

I did not fully realize that this was what I was doing until very recently, as we began talking about our experience in this online space called Cohering Community.

The people who were attracted to come into this space came again and again, week after week. We went through the program together, which invited us into connection with ourselves and with each other. Many of us have been meeting for a year or more.

We keep coming back because there is caring, kindness, transparency, deep love, and deep connection. There is a sense of wholeness there that invites us back.

One group was called The Oasis. It is a place to relax, recharge, and re-energize, and then go back out into the world to do the work we are here to do.

We have called it home.

In some cases, people have said they can share things there that they cannot share with their spouse or family. They can become more deeply authentic with themselves and with each other in these spaces.

In a sense, if we have been lost in the desert, the Oasis becomes a touchpoint — a home place where we can connect and then go back out into the world. Maybe we can find other lost souls. Maybe we can continue our service to the world.

It becomes a touchpoint we call home with each other, and a touchpoint within ourselves that we can call home.

So I invite you to check out Cohering Community. I will put the link below.

In the fall, we are starting a new cohort — a larger cohort — because I feel we want to expand this experience. Hopefully, if enough people are involved, we will have several groups, or pods, of eight to fourteen people. Each group will have an intimate, deep experience of practicing wholeness, being at home, caring for each other, and getting to know each other at authentic depths over time.

We will take you through a program that connects you to yourself and to each other. My hope is that beyond the program, you will have the essence of home that you can continue to co-create and collaborate with over time. Or perhaps you will simply become an oasis for each other.

Each group or circle will also be connected to other circles — other places of home. Perhaps this whole larger circle becomes a sense of home, or a place where you can visit other people’s homes and connect there too.

I love the word community because it also speaks to my vocation and to the sense I received in India:

Come home.
Come into unity.
Come into community.

So I invite you to come into unity, to come cohere community with us.

I wish you an amazing journey home.

If I can support you in your journey home, or if you have gifts to offer in the homecoming, please reach out. Let’s have a conversation.

Thank you for attending this podcast on What’s Arising?

Home is arising.